Well it’s a new year, kids have gone back to school and I have recovered my laptop from the depths of my teenager daughters bedroom. Her laptop had to be returned to school at the end of term and as she couldn’t possibly survive without one, mine was MIA for 6 weeks. Apart from the fact that I had about 3000 odd emails to delete I didn’t really miss it that much. I seemed to manage quite nicely with my ipad. With it back in my possession I am feeling motivated to write again.
Towards the end of last year I found I was slipping into a headspace of melancholy, tiredness and apathy mixed with frustration and a sense of desperately needing to know what direction to take. I was/ still am, feeling like I need to take my life (my career) in a new direction. There seemed to be so many options and pathways but I was completely grid locked. Maybe I just needed a holiday, maybe it was the end of year Christmas crazy stressful time, but it was all getting on top of me.
A very wise person suggested to me at the time that perhaps what I needed to do was “nothing”, don’t make any decisions about what courses to take, or about trying to work out a new career path, or study any more books. Perhaps what I needed was to just “be”!! So that’s exactly what I did. Our plans to go away for Christmas visiting family had been put on hold as my husband had shoulder surgery, it was going to cost more to put the dogs in a doggy kennel than it would for us to go on holiday anyway and the kids were tired and exhausted from a busy year of school and extracurricular activities. So we stayed home. We read books, watched movies, did Christmas craft and cooking and, just so it doesn’t sound totally unrealistically blissful, there was bickering, whinging and nagging. (Haha and that was just me) !!
So have I had an epiphany about my future or mapped out my year with plans and goals? No not really. I guess rather than make any new year resolutions to not do this or not eat that I have decided that relaxing is good, that a monthly calendar with impending activities is helpful and that if everyone helps with the weekly meal planning and shopping we all get to eat something. Although according to Miss 14 there is still “no food in the house”.
I have decided that I will add stuff into my life rather than take things away, so the plan is by adding good stuff (good food choices, a walk around the block, a 15 minute meditation) that the less good stuff might fall away.
I read somewhere (OK it was facebook !!) that if something doesn’t excite you, then it isn’t the right path. So with this in mind I have been taking note of what excites me, what lights me up. It appears that the thing that excites me most at the moment is bugs, not the creepy crawly type, mind you under a microscope they are probably scarier, but the type that live in our gut.
I have been reading, learning, discovering all about the gut microbiome. I am even growing my own healthy bugs in my Kultured Wellness fermented yogurt and kefir. There is so much to learn that I don’t really know where to start. I am currently reading a book by Dr Perlmutter – Brain Maker. I have no idea where this will all lead me, but I believe that it is the start of an exciting journey. I will start with myself and see what it takes to “get me a healthy gut”.
I belong to an amazing tribe of people who amongst them have an absolute wealth of knowledge and experience. I plan to immerse myself in this circle and absorb and share all I can.